I had to laugh...

So I was in one of my CWC classes (that would be class within a class) and one of the students in there asked me a question...and was VERY serious about it. She very seriously looked at me and asked, "Are you pregnant?" At first I was stunned that it was asked. Once I got over the shock of the question I replied to her with, "No. Why do you ask?" Her response was that I have been a little grumpy lately and she was just wondering. HAHA!!!! I explained that the reason I have been grumpy is because it has been a tough couple of weeks at school and that I haven't seen my husband in almost two weeks because he is at Officer Training in Virginia. She was very concerned about why I hadn't seen Brian and that it had been a tough couple of weeks at school. It took all I had to not laugh after the conversation was over. She was genuinely concerned. That's what makes teaching worth the stress...the genuine concern a majority of students have for their teachers and the "AHA!" moments. I needed that.

New Technology Obsession

I feel so behind in technology right now, but my new obsession in the technology world is a Blackberry Curve.

I am currently looking at getting a new cell phone becuase my plan will be expiring soon. The phone I have now, while not horrible, is not the best. My phone has decided to not charge all the time. I had it plugged in all night and I thought it was charging, but it didn't charge last night. I left the house without my charger, thinking my phone was fully charged, and had to make one bar of battery last over twelve hours. Anyway...I don't know why I all of a sudden had the urge to get a Blackberry, but I have decided that will be my next cell phone.

Thinking and showing my appreciation

Letting my mind wander where it will and as my mind wanders freely it stops. I begin to think about the things going on in my life and I come to the conclusion that I have a wonderful life. My husband is amazing, my friends are always there for me, and my family will always help me out when I need it. My mind begins to wander a little more and stops at the stresses of my life. The more I think, the more stressed I get. I think and think until finally I come to the conclusion that I have had enough of being treated the way I have been. Today is a new day. Today starts a new chapter in my life, the chapter entitled "Finally Standing Up for Myself." The chapter has only just begun. Where will it go from here?

Only one person knows and I am leaving it all up to Him. He will guide me through these tough times and lead me safely through them. I am putting my life into His hands now, I am merely a passenger in this ride we call life. My goal from now on is to sit back and enjoy the ride. This is going to be tough for me to do, but I'm going to do my best.

The last thing for the night before I go to bed is a small note of appreciation for my husband. He is a great guy and I don't know what I would do without him. He puts up with a lot from me...late nights because I'm upset about my job, lots of worrying because I'm upset about something (usually my job), and taking care of me. I don't understand why he puts up with me sometimes, but I am very grateful that he does. He helps me through everything. I am so glad our paths crossed and brought us back together after we had both graduated from high school. He is my best friend and the love of my life. Brian...if you're reading this I want you to know that I love you with everything that I am. I am so proud to say that I am your wife. You have made me the happiest girl in the entire world. You're the best!

Vacation decision

We finally made a decision on vacation! We are going to Hawaii for our one year anniversary! We booked the hotel and flights this past week. I am so excited to go! It seems so far away right now, hopefully time will go quickly. I need a vacation after the school year that I have had.

Thinking

I have found myself thinking a lot about things the past couple of days. I have mostly been thinking about next year and what I want to do. I don't know anymore...I really don't know. I had the day off yesterday for my mom's surgery and I didn't really think about my students at all. That makes me feel like a horrible teacher. Last year I was always thinking and worrying about my students. I was wondering what my students were doing and if they were behaving for the sub...this year I have barely done that. My classes are good...maybe that's why I haven't worried about them as much. I have been asking myself a lot of questions since I got home yesterday evening. The questions I have been asking myself are questions that I don't have answers to. I'm not even close to having any kind of answer to most of them. All I know is that I now feel like an awful teacher and person and I don't know what to do anymore.

I needed to vent...thanks for allowing me to do so.

2 weeks

I have the feeling that the next two weeks will be long. Brian is at Basic Officer Training for PHS. He was excited and nervous as I left him at the airport this morning. I, of course, was in tears walking back to the truck. I wasn't ready to spend two weeks without him, but I knew it was coming. He also has a three week training that he will have to go as well. Again, I am not looking forward to that, but I knew it was coming. The time spent apart is well worth it because he has found a job that he loves. He is excited to go to work...plus he has great stories to tell when he gets home. I am so proud of him.

On another note...I ordered a new camera last night! It is an Olympus Stylus 1050SW 10.1MP Digital Camera. Nothing fancy, but I'm excited! It's shockproof and waterproof!! I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of the new camera. I had a camera that Brian got me for Christmas in 2007, and somehow I broke it within 2-3 months of owning it. I waited too long to get it fixed...dang me and my procrastination. Anyway...Brian and I were talking about the camera yesterday and happened to see one like what I bought at Wal-mart. I came home and researched it a little and ended up finding the one I bought. It took some convincing on Brian's part for me to purchase it, but in the end I did and I am so glad! I have been using Brian's camera lately, while it's nice it isn't one that I can just put in my purse and go. I want one that I can just keep in my purse...and now I have one! (again)